I’ve started watching this stuff. Joseph Campbell was one smart dude.

Power of Myth

money is nice, was i that restricted?

Is this the last day of me working for The Man?  Maybe.  I need to succeed in the offline world.  I need to be able to take that road less traveled and succeed on my own, with my own structure, with my own priorities and rules and way of doing things.  If I don’t, then it’s back to The Man.  I like the man.  He creates a construct that allows me to push forward and be social.  God knows, I need to be social more than I realize.  Know thyself.  And as soon as you do, change thyself where you need to.

I better be ready.  I mean, I’m about to embark.  By the beginning of February, everything should be in place.  I’m going to start going to work every day.  And not ‘work’ it’s going to be work.   This is my life.  I used to scream at myself when I was falling asleep at the wheel.   I knew that if I dosed off, I could die.  I didn’t want to stop driving, because I had to get home, or wherever.  So I would just repeatedly yell at myself, ‘THIS IS YOUR LIFE!!!’ to keep myself awake.

yeah, real starving

So as I begin to write, I need to be desperately productive.  I’ve got to win at this.  I’ve got to stay awake and do this well and waste little time.  I’ve got to keep yelling at myself, ‘THIS IS YOUR LIFE!!!’ because it is my life.  And the boys, and my wife.  It will define our lives.   Making a living at it, and getting satisfaction, and not having to go to an office everyday to meet with people you don’t like and who don’t like you.